Release it all so love may engulf our hearts.

I guess this was the final fear I had to face... All others I've been working on as of late have suddenly fallen away. Everything is so clear and believe it our not, my heart is so swollen with love that I can do nothing but weep; love for you, love for us, love for this life and all life!

I am grateful, though, for the lesson - I now know with all of my heart what it means to exist solely in the present moment for I could choose to deny the lesson I know I must learn, or I can accept it and release all hopes and dreams and expectations and simply love with all of my heart in every moment. Needless to say, I've chosen the latter.

What will be, will be, but I will be loving you always.

I feel surprisingly light.

The beauty that emerges from despair is one of the most precious gifts I have ever felt. I must accept that despair is a part of this reality from time to time, and as they say, this too shall pass. I am doing my best to be a conscious witness to this life, to observe from a place higher than my physical self, my mind, my ego. I have to say, it is getting easier - just as he said it would. The pain is as great as ever, but learning from the experience rather than laying down and surrendering my heart to it all, is becoming easier.

Believe it or not, I do thank you for this experience.