I feel surprisingly light.

The beauty that emerges from despair is one of the most precious gifts I have ever felt. I must accept that despair is a part of this reality from time to time, and as they say, this too shall pass. I am doing my best to be a conscious witness to this life, to observe from a place higher than my physical self, my mind, my ego. I have to say, it is getting easier - just as he said it would. The pain is as great as ever, but learning from the experience rather than laying down and surrendering my heart to it all, is becoming easier.

Believe it or not, I do thank you for this experience.